Bucket List

I am 21!! Turning 22 OMG i cant believe how fast life is passing me by.. Kinda Scary!!!!
I am having alot of fun at the moment spending all the time i have with my gorgeous yet sometimes annoying Boyfriend jake and with my best friend Mea!!!

lately things havnt been going all that well... A few little mishaps and confusing situations.. enough to throw my life a little off track... nothing i cant fix.. but enough to drive me up the walls...
I had this most amusing thought today... Im going to write a bucket list... all the things i want to do before i turn 30!!! Not before i die!!!

This thought scared me a little more.. what i wanna do before im 30 OMG its not that far away....
Anyone have any ideas???

1st Day

So today was my first day at my new job....

It was great and i loved it.. its such an easy centre to get into the rhythm of... And the supervisor said she really likes the way i work and how i interact with the children....

For some reason i got the hard jobs today, but maybe it was meant to be....

I sore a little 2 year old girl crying so i comforted her and then found out from the supervisor that it was the little girls 2nd day at the centre... but i was keeping her distracted and doing activities with her and she was happy...

Then i just had to be the one who walked into the bathroom and found a little boy had an accident with number 2's and it was everywhere!!! So i cleaned him up and made him nice and clean...

So maybe i was meant to do these things cause the supervisor was very happy with everything i did....

There was the most funniest little boy his name was Cooper and when he walked in he was so enthusiastic to be there he was hilarious every 2nd word was "awesome"....Like when a little girl came in and she had a sparkly skirt on... He goes up to her and says you look awesome!! lol...

It just cracked me up...

All in all the day was great and i think i really am going to enjoy working there...

Amyxx

Levi

YAY i havnt seen Levi in ages and tmoz morning his dad Joel is going to drop him off at my place to stay the night.. Im heaps excited and i cant wait...

Will have to make sure i cook him something nice seeing as he doesnt like carissas cooking lol...

Also going to help carissa look for a house and apply for some of them... Hope fully she gets something soon...

Anyway better be off, gotta finishing crocheting my blanket... That i started like 2 years ago lol

Amy xx

NEW JOB

YAY finally after quite a few months now i have found a part time job that will soon enough lead to full time... I go in on monday and meet all the staff and kids ad then i start work on tuesday...

Cant wait i am so happy i have finally found a job i am going to enjoy..LOTS

Amy xx

The Brick

The Brick!!


Read this today and don't delete it even if you are too busy!! You'll see.



A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down



when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door!

He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown.

The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting,

'What was that all about and who are you? Just
what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?'

The young boy was apologetic. 'Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do,' He pleaded. 'I threw the brick because no one else would stop...' With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. 'It's my brother,' he said,
'he rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up.'

Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, 'Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me .'

Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat.

He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into
the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.

'Thank you and may God bless you,' the grateful child told the stranger.

Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.


It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message:

'Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!' God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts.
Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us.

Amazing

So i have just come back from a great holiday in Mallacoota and i am missing it already...The time went sooo fast when i got back home feels like i was never there...

The trip home was ok besides having a scary bus driver, and everytime we turned a corner felt like the bus was going to tip over...lol

But i got home safe and sound...

When i got off the bus, jake was there to pick me up holding a bunch of flowers and a huge bar of toblerone he knows me too well....

It was great to come home to a clean house and my bubby jake smothering me and telling me im to never leave him again lol...

Anyway i better head off.. Just cleaned the whole bathroom and made the beds and now i am off to do the kitchen and loungeroom... Pitty i cant do any washing its been raining for 2 days straight!!!

Amy xx

Well>>>!!!

So today has been a hard day.. Not feeling the best emotionally wise and im a little all over the place... Working heaps and keeping myself busy trying to keep up and keep my head above water.. If it wasnt for jake i would be drowning...

I love him so much and everything is going perfect....

I hate the fact that after school friendships get lost and people change so much...

Everyone is at fault for that...

Missing levi.....

Wishing that people wouldnt gossip without knowing the facts first....

Feeling better

So today has been a pretty cruisy day i love it when everything just falls into place its perfect.... Well thats how my day has been with the kids...
Im just about to start cooking dinner and getting the kiddies ready for possibly some play outside if the weather holds out.
Everything is becoming alot less complicated today and is going pretty well. I have figured out a savings plan so i can afford to go to mallacoota for christmas and to take some time off work for it... I actually booked accomodation today for the place i wanna stay and it looks as though its all coming along quite well...

I am so tired i cant wait for monday jake has the day off work so we are going to go for a nice drive down the coast somewhere or maybe even up.... He hasnt done the touristy thing yet in wollongong so i need to show him around...

I am really enjoying my time i spend with him and we will just have to see where things go...
But i think things are going to go quite well with jake...

Last night i had a good cry and probably could have done alot more.... I havnt cried in a long time it was a relief to know i havnt shut myslef down totally from being hurt....
but i totally feel better after crying....

Anyway the day has gone good and i better be off to make dinner...

Love Amy

Things are looking up for Amy

Yay things are looking up for amy...
Joel has finally started to move on he is still making things dfficult for me just a little but things are getting better, i think he is finally getting the point that i dont want to be with him anymore...

I am a little dissapointed that i have lost friends through this, but i suppose its better to find out now then later.. In times likes these it really shows who is really there for you.. So sad i had to lose a friend i have known for 8 years...

Anyway looking ahead and to the future and am loving it.. turning 20 could possibly be my milestone into real adulthood.. Cause i have been through so much already and i have only been 20 for 1 month.... All i can say is bring it on.. Cause i believe that all of this crap i am going through will make me stronger when i up against much larger circumstances then this..

I am feeling good about myself... Im on a high just hopeing nothing will bring me down...

Love from
Amy

Today is A new Day

Today is a new day and as i wrote yesterday wishing that this cold weather would move on, i got my wish and it has yay!!!
The sun is shining and the day looks absolutley beautiful...
The pool looks so inviting yet i am thinking that with the cold weather we have recently had looks can be decieving as the water temprature is probably very cold...

So school holidays with the kids has been interesting still a week to go but they have been great behaving very well most of the time...
Today we are going to do some art and craft......
So hopefully that should keep the entertainment for a while....
I have been trying to get these boys away from the xbox and playstation and tv they are totally addiicted...
So i have also introduced some board games which keep them very entertained for quite some time aslong as the fighting doesnt start... LOL.

I cant believe how much the girls are growing up i took the oldest girl shopping yesterday for her first bra i couldnt believe it i felt kind of honoured to have been there for her... She didnt think it was a very big deal but i did.. lol
It also made me really sad though at the same time knowing that her teenage years are going to be so hard without her mum already the big things are coming up like highschool starting next year.. And all the girly stuff that comes with it...Hopefully i shall be of some service to her as she is going through this most difficult time......
I am loving my job and the way it is..... It makes me very happy.....
Love Amy

Hello

So today has been an interesting day... Things have been going so wrong and so good... I am so confused about everything today and i am not feeling the best.

So i am now very happy moving on with my life and the way it is going.
I am enjoying looking to the future and knowing that there are better things out there for me.

So i better go i am so tired and need some sleep for work tmoz...
Work is good and i cant wait for summer this cold weather is really quite crap.
Plus i am really ready to hurry up and use the fantastic looking pool that is sitting in the back yard....

I am now enjoying life for everyday and not for the days that have already gone...
I shall have no regrets..

Love Amy

Who KNows

I cant believe how tired i am , all my energy is totally gone...
Children do not care what u think or are going through... They will play up when they like and about whatever reason they choose.... (these children know who they are)

Anyway i am so over everything at the moment and am stressing really bad i am always out of energy and im panicking all the time i dont get it...
I think i may just have to go to the doctors...

Joel is really stressing me out threatening to take my stuff... He is becoming a very angry person because i wont get back with him...
Its scaring me alot...
Im not copeing very well... And now everytime the kids do something wrong i am taking twice as hard and it isnt fair on them... I feel horrible

Stress is killing me at the moment.... I dont know how much i can take of the playing games and calling names i feel as though i am in high school all over again.

It doesnt help i have friends talking about me behind my back and telling joel everything move i make or everything i do and then he uses things against me i cant take it anymore i need him to leave me alone... Its so hard because somewhere in me i still care for him deeply but everything he did to me was wrong and i cant be with someone who could possibly do that to another person especially someone they were supposed to love....

Im still hurting....
I keep praying that each day will get easier for me to handle... But with all reality its getting harder

New LIfe

So when two people split up so much hurt and confusion is flown into the air and you never know when it is truly going to settle properly. Life is whirlwind we get swept into and sometimes we have no idea of when excatly our feet are going to touch the ground...

Life is a constant confliction of what is right and what is wrong.. you never know really when you are going to make choices will regret because it could be a long time before u realise that it was the biggest mistake you have made...

But as some people say... "Never regret anything that made you smile"
I just regret not ending things when i stopped smiling..
When you stop smiling and you start frowning at everything and you know that you are not your true self that is when you know that something in your life is going wrong.. I know things can be hard at times but when things never change and you have to start changing things about yourself for another person something is horribly wrong...

People should love you for who you are... And if they truly love you they will never try to change you and make you something your not..

Great

SO everything at the moment is going really well. Joel has moved into his new house and it looks great i am so excited for him except for the fact that he has to live there on his own is a bit daunting but anyway he needs the training lol.
So i am at work at the moment and a new girl has moved in she is 21 and she is really funny and has the same sort of personality i do we get along really well its good to have a friend and someone i can talk to in the house i am living in it can get all a bit overwelming at times.
The kids have a school disco on tomorrow night it should be good, the girls are all excited to have someone helping them out to get ready lol.
Anyway better go so much to do and so little time lol.

Bye bye

I am feeling Amused

I dont know what is up with the name of this blog i just have no other way to describe how i am feeling. Meand joel have been fighting heaps about this new job and how much time it takes away from us. Hopefully we will get over this very minor but huge thing.
I am enjoying this job so much, the kids are lovely and absolutely georgous i am beginning to get really attached. Me and the girls have great nights together and the boys are just real jokers and crack me up.

This is by far the best job i have had.

Ill write back later.

Amy xx

I JUST DONT KNOW

so this is a very random blog, just thought i would write seeing as i havnt done this for a while lol. But anyway i would just let u know that work is great and i am enjoying it heaps and that this flu i have is getting alot better then it first was.
I am ffinding it really hard though to keep my social life in check. I am orking weekends and all of this is getting really hard, my friends arnt inviting me to go away because they know i will be working and even though it hurts and i would like and invitation anyway they still dont ask.
Anyway me and joel are getting better. and the house is nearly finished and ready to move into. Even though i wont be moving in there even though i could its just easier to live where i work.

But anyway its so cold here at the moment and i am freezing. LOL.

Better go.

Love amy

Early Morning

So i have nw officially completed my first week and what a week it was.
It was wonderful the children are great to look after and hey are no problem at all.
The only problem i have at the moment is the flu!!!!! AHhhhhHHHHHHH
So i have dosed myself up on cold and flu tablets and multi-vitamins lol
The good ones garlic horseradish and vitamin c. YAY

But hopefully it doesnt get much worse as it already is- i have a really sore throat runny nose headaches hot and cold temps and everything disgusting lol.

But thats what u get when u work around kids. Oh well now hopefully this will build my immune system up HAHA.

Anyway the weekend was good movie nights with the kids and singstar was awesome.
Got my hair cut yesterday it looks so good and i got it lightened looks like me. LOL why wouldnt it!!!

Anyway better go i have to wake the kids up for school.

Bye bye

Amy xx

PS please see if other ppl would like to join my blog

First few days

So the first few days have been really good!!!

The kids are great and not too much to handle lol.
Actually the two girls are reading this at the moment lol.

they like me so thats a good start. And surprisingly its not so hard as i thought it was going to be,
And it feels nothing like a job lol.

Anyway write again tomorrow.

Amy xx

New Job

OMG OMG OMG

So i am now at the new house with my new job.
Its a tad bit scary lol.
Im so nervous tommoroow is my first day.
The kids are great and seems like they will be aqlot of fun.

And i think that me and joel need the space at the moment and its the best for us a the moment.

Anyway ill write again later and continue this fantastic blog.

Amy xx

New Beginning

So new beginning

New Beginning

Sometimes when life feels like you cant go on, you just have to. Because life doesnt stop just because your giving up.
People in life still care about you and sometimes even when you think you have nothing left, patience is the key, self pitty isnt going to get rid of the hurt you are feeling and neither is a negative attitude. None of it helps, its just something to dwell on instead of looking to the future for a positive outcome you consantly look at the past and think of the negative.
NEVER DWELL ON THE PAST
So many people make that mistake.
You can be made the victim by the ones that have hurt you only if you let them.
No point on looking back and the past and wanting it back because it cant. its unrealistic and very impossible.

Look to the future with good thoughts and only good thoughts.
never do anything stupid or demeaning because it never ever has the effect you want it to, its always bad.

Talk to friends and Family and who ever you can let it off your chest and move on!!!
There is always someone else out there for you

love Amy xx